a blog of experiences of places and faces I've been, past and present

27 October 2016

An Open Letter To Renaissance

I joined Renaissance in the middle of the Cata expansion and at that time I was leaving a hardcore guild looking for a more social and casual one. I actually interviewed Okeret asking him a number of questions about the environment and members before asking him if I could join the guild because I wanted to find a good fit in a social and fun and friendly group of people who liked to play WoW.

After I left my old guild a number of the more social and less hardcore members followed me to Renaissance. For the first few months things were awesome. I talked my real life friends (including your current GM) and family into joining me on Baelgun in Renaissance and became an officer in the guild because I believed I had found the guild I'd been seeking.

With the release of Pandaria came a focus on growing the guild and adding more raiders as well as more casual players. At that time I was very clear in the officer's meeting that I thought we needed to identify the type of guild we wanted to be because a rift occurs in a social guild when raiders start coming in. I was concerned that we needed a clear vision before we recruited so that we didn't accidentally bring in players who would not fit in with our more casual existing membership. I was told not to worry about it and was given tasks to do to help recruitment, make the guild more social and keep everyone as happy-go-lucky as they had been just a few months earlier.

I met a lot of resistance in officer's meetings and in the guild from new and returning founding members of the guild. I also really wasn't in love with the content. I felt like we were going in a bad direction in the guild and like I was contributing to making Renaissance a place I really didn't want to stay. I drifted away and quit playing rather than keep doing a thing I didn't believe would work or leaving the guild I'd talked my friends and family into joining with me.

With the release of Draenor I returned. Okeret had let me remain an officer and again the focus of our first officer's meeting was an effort to grow the guild. I talked to other officers and again tried to explain that I felt like we needed an identity for the guild before we could recruit for new members. I felt like I was treated like I was borrowing trouble and that because I'd left and hadn't been helping in the guild during the time I was gone I didn't really know what I was talking about or have any say in where we were going or what we would be doing. I also really didn't like some of the changes in the expansion and was being shot down or treated poorly in guild chat when I asked for help. As the tension in the guild and in the officer's meetings continued to grow and my enjoyment of playing the game diminished I left again. This time entirely. I didn't even pay my subscription fees. I quit WoW. I honestly and truthfully had no intention of returning.

And I REALLY missed the game.

When this new expansion came out I returned and discovered that the guild was even quieter and more distant. It had become a guild of players with their heads down and their eyes on personal quiet little prizes that mattered to them. I got feedback almost immediately that I had been really missed and that my positive and social attitude had been lacking. I was asked by the new leadership of the guild to step up and bring the social back to a guild that was hurting for it. 

When Anpu asked me to become the social heart of the guild I was VERY clear that Renaissance is NOT a social guild... it has not been a social guild since the end of the Cata expansion. Renaissance is a quiet place for familiar people to do their own things with other people doing their own things, occasionally with other people who need the same thing, and still mostly alone. I was begged please to step up and try to bring back the heart of a fun guild.

I tried, I really did. 

I met constant and very vocal resistance or interference from the same individuals who had been the issue before and had no interest from the guild in anything remotely social. I posted 5 events to the guild calendar and even the other officers were unable or disinterested in attending. It was clear to me that the guild was happy the way it was and that trying to change it was only going to cause problems.

I took a look at things and realized I'd spent more time not playing than playing since I'd joined the guild because I didn't even like it anymore. I also realized that this time I like the expansion enough that I have no intention of leaving the game so I quit the damned guild like I should have done a long time ago.

My boyfriend Jon and I turned a bank alt guild into Yayifications, a *Casual Adult Social Guild. This is a guild for friends and family and stands for the things we want it to stand for. I miss some of you too much not to invite you to come and play with us.
So all of that to get here... 


If you would like to join Yayifications and play because we're friends and we want to play together then please go to our link (click the word Yayifications above) and read the information on the front page of the guild page and the note from the GM. If I shared this link with you myself you will become a member of the guild immediately because you're already a friend and I miss playing with you. If this has been passed to you, please apply and note who you know in the guild for an invite.

And remember, Yayifications isn't a Progression Guild or a Raiding Guild or a PvP guild or any of the other types of guild... we're just a group of friends and family who play WoW.

I miss ya, a lot. Even if you don't want to join Yayifications I'd still like to play with you so please message me on RealID.

-Ruth

*
Casual = Maybe you played WoW today, maybe you played something else or had a life. You're still a friend so you're still in the guild. Haven't seen me in awhile? Call me or message me in real life, you know I'll do the same with you.
Adult = Members are old enough to vote and use adult language and decision making skills - this isn't an invitation for adult content. 
Social = We are in a guild to play together, not because we're forced to interact with others in order to get to our end-game goals. I must add that this doesn't mean every time we're online we're doing a thing together, it means that when we are playing together it's because we want to be not because we have to be or are in some weird way obligated to be. 
Guild = Another word for a club, group, or society. A group of people who have joined together in pursuit of a common interest.

26 October 2016

On WoWing While Working... LOL


and other stuff.

So I haven't been online much so I haven't been recruiting much for Yayifications. I thought "I can do retail..." and I'm right. I totally can do retail. I can take the face-to-face like no one I've ever known... even when they're REALLY ugly with me... and the register and counting money and making sure to keep all the rules in mind? I'm a pro.

Standing on my feet all day? Not so much. Period. End. I am actually having to quit the job because the pain level I'm at by the time I leave work each day is compounding in the hours NOT on my feet until I'm waking up in pain at night even taking 2 different pain meds before bed AND a sleep aid.So... yeah... sucks. I could TOTALLY be awesome at this job if I didn't have my back and legs rebelling against me. Retail isn't easy. It's not even a cake walk, which the Food Network folks showed us is ALSO not easy.

In short, it's time to start recruiting... more on that tomorrow or later.

Now... what this blog is ACTUALLY about...



 WOOOOOT!!! Now THAT'S more like it. :D 
Not many big multi-pulls in this one, either... so it was a good reflection 
of the DPS she can pull without flasks but with food and 
some strength buffs in the form of old world potions.
And the start of a new "mini" series for this blog only.
Things I've Missed In WoW... perhaps some sarcasm here... 
logging in to do a fishing daily and discovering I have inadvertantly interrupted
someone's RP tryst... LMAO
Awkward. 

And no, I didn't log or move. Not my problem. LOL

23 October 2016

so that it's been said in public

This is a list of the reasons I left Renaissance:
  1. I don't like the every-man-for-himself attitude.
  2. The presented identity of the guild and the reality of the guild are in conflict and this has been the case for five years. Renaissance is not a social guild. It hasn't been a social guild since some of the original founding members returned with the old image and ideals of the guild they'd left and were returning to still firmly in mind. (Something you might not know: Renaissance was originally a raiding guild made up of friends with similar interests. They slowly melted down and one by one left until Okeret was just sort of abandoned with the guild and had to make the choices and decisions that made it into the guild that it is today. Remember that when someone says anything nasty about him... he was a member of a guild that was passed from one person to the next by promoting someone else to GM and then dropping guild and he was chosen because he happened to be online at the time the last GM left. He picked up the responsibility for the guild and rebuilt it and the new face of the guild was what he and the officers and members made of it. Casual and social weren't accidental in the Renaissance that I joined... they were intentional choices made by a membership that didn't include many of the current raiding members or leaders.)
  3. I hate the structure of the guild and ranks and perks. I don't like having to be an officer just to be able to use my guild bank and the structure of multiple levels and ranks in a guild that is not specifically made to be a progression guild don't make sense. I am particularly turned off by the idea that a guild that calls itself social and casual needs to have a punishment or punitive rank or rules that you have to play in a certain length of time or be kicked from the guild.
  4. I don't like having to play with people that I don't even like. I am not going to pay to play a game with people I don't want to know anything about or who treat me like they don't want to know me.
Here is what Yayifications offers that Renaissance does not:
  1. This is a *Casual Adult Social Guild... first and only. We're a guild because we're friends and would rather play together than apart.
  2. Our identity is VERY clear and floats over our heads and is obvious on our guild page and even in the artwork on our tabards... we are a social guild. There's nothing hardcore here anywhere. We are playing the game to have fun... Yayifications! :D
  3. This is a flat rank guild. Except for the GM and bank alts we're all the same rank. Once you are a member of the guild you have the same rights and privileges everyone else has. Also the same rules and responsibilities as every other member.
  4. The only way into the guild is to be friends with a member of the guild... or to be willing to be a recruit until we all have time to figure out if you're compatible and able to become friends with the members of the guild.

11 October 2016

Some of the girls... new and old...

Allumette (formerly known as Julienne, before there were 2 and I had to choose which to rename) after fancy fish feast... LOL

Julienne, the second... ready to head out after a 3 expac retirement... whatever will she do?! Well, her adventure begins in Draenor, so she must now go answer Khadgar's call.


And Bazooka... the fire mage now arcane and just building to get back to fire again... :D With Pepe... because.

Just 3 of 14... :D

Oh, and for the record... this is the first expansion WoW has done since LK that I really love. The story, the world and quests... even the rediculously stupid way they've gated the world, quests, professions and everything else... (really, 3 levels of each type of flower to pick? really Blizzard? Nomi? I've been cooking since day one 8 years ago... and let me tell you, any asshole can poke a stick through a fish and manage to cook it enough not to die from it... without turning it into inedible cinders. Any idiot except, apparently, the idiot I TRAINED IN PANDARIA)

A little bit of wardrobe and in-game family change

REALLY FAST THEN the WAAAAAYYY BACK HISTORY... I was in a social guild of friends and it was amazing, then I was in two guilds and they were both awesome... all WoW fanfic came from these times, all stories and histories for my mains came from this time.

Then I met raiding about 3 months after the rest of my social guild did so when a bunch of them left to form a raiding guild I was left behind and couldn't find a way to raid and so I left the first guild, then I left the second guild over differences of how to do raids and stuff.

Then I was in a bunch of guilds and then I was on a bunch of servers, in both factions and in lots of guilds... and then I started a guild and decided I hated it and went away from the game for awhile and then I was on Baelgun where I was in UC for awhile and then interviewed and joined Renaissance. For about 5 months or so I felt like I was finally back in that first guild. The one I never should have left and should have been a total jerk to the new members who joined right from the start... but I wasn't, so they couldn't gut our guild and ruin it. Well, then suddenly I felt the same thing all over again, a need to be nasty and rout some new members before they could gut the guild. And I was told they were actually the founding members of the guild.

Well, since then I've stayed in one guild... determined not to leave. Regardless of how many times I was told to do a thing and then not supported when it made people uncomfortable or complain or how many times I was told that what I wanted to do was impossible and then not backed up even a little bit on any decision by the leadership of the guild who fails to lead even when followed. There was just potentially too much drama in the guild or server hopping and WAY too much money to a game company that really doesn't love me as much as I love their products.

So, when the going got tough in this guild I tended to get going. About 7 months the first time in Cataclysm. About a year spread over two long breaks in Pandaria. And then the cake topping cherry of them all, I was gone all but the first three months and last month of Draenor. Going away and just not facing the problems I was having was easier than arguing or dealing with people I didn't even like. I had different ideas, I do things differently and somehow my differences are intolerable while I am bent over backwards and twisted into a pretzel to accommodate others' differences. Any smart person would have run away sooner. I was being irrationally sticky because of my past... LOL

So I left Renaissance and I have given formatting and suggestions to my boyfriend who has started us a guild. Yayifications! WOOT! Now the same guild name and leadership for our Rift guild AND our WoW guild...

Right now only a couple of my friends are in the guild with the Yayificator and all 14 of my toons... I've done everything I can to not even remotely encourage others to leave Renaissance. In fact, because of my friendship with their new GM I have not even pointed out to him that if he gave them back their guild and came to ours that they would finally have all of their original membership back and could lead or self-destruct from within without him as a scapegoat which seems to be what the title GM has meant for them for about 7 years... and would be infinitely better than the topping from the bottom nasty way that some get things done and the spineless unwillingness to make a stand bullshit they've pulled from the start.

See... social means lots of things to lots of people. What it means to me is that you're friends first and guildies second. And that the new people you meet and bring in fit in so well that you wonder how you ever played the game without them. Mostly in WoW these sorts no longer exist without really digging through the layers. I have a few of these friends and I left them in Renaissance out of loyalty to Jake who is first and top among them. He and I play for totally different reasons and in completely different ways, and he's family. Leaving the guild he now is the GM of hurt a lot more than I wanted it to and because it hurt for the wrong reasons I just left... dick move if ever there was one and sometimes that's just the way it is.

I no longer want to play with people I don't even like. I can do that in LFR and LFG and at every world event or time out in the wide world of WoW... when I'm "home" in my guild I don't want to have to deal with people saying nasty things about their children because it's "cool" or whispering behind other member's backs because they can or selfishly hoarding supplies for themselves and being accusatory and nasty when asked to help supply mats for items they're using as a member of the raid group or planned guild event... when I send you a godsdamned toy in the mail I want you to say "Wow! I have this one... thanks for this... do you mind if I send it to [insert name here] who just started playing and might not have it?" Not treat me like a moron who spends way too much time on the unimportant stuff.

And if I am never called out in guild chat (only to be then followed up on Facebook) during the only 3 hours I have to play the game that day for not understanding that people have lives outside of WoW because I had the gall to suggest that our flagging raid team might want to do LFR together instead of each individually burning it again then it will be really too soon, because that was the last straw on a crippled camel's back.

See... I prefer direct communication, not volatile "gentle" communications from people who have never had a nice thing to say except about themselves in 6 years, or whimpy spineless accusations of too much structure and damage to the guild in the past bullshit. To me that's not how ANY guild works, particularly not social ones. But then... as I said, I see things differently. I felt like a toxic element entered the guild 5 months into my membership there and by the time I'd identified that I didn't want to be there anymore it was too late and I'd brought so many friends and family in that I feared it would gut the momentum they'd started to build because I still blamed myself for the critical failure of that first ever social guild I'd been in.

You know what?

I'm not that cool.

I'm not that epic or important.

If somehow there is a coincidence of membership following one individual then there's something wrong with the guild... not with the individual. When 1/2 of your guild peels out because I go then it wasn't really your guild to begin with, it was mine. So the "hence" and "how come"  of how I finally left.

I'll say it here and now and be done with it from here forward... I didn't kill Decadence, Inc. My leaving Renaissance is just that. If I also happened to leave right before it collapsed then perhaps that's survival instinct... I could smell the water and you refused to admit the ship was sinking.

And now that that's all off my chest... I can leave it here and not look back. Except I will, that's why it's here. LOL One who forgets is destined to repeat. One who cannot move on, however, stays stuck in the already done.


You might possibly know some of the people involved, so this is my side of all the dumbness... mostly brought on by my inability to /gquit because I had talked my friends and family into this guild and then decided I didn't like the direction it had started going. I own this in my life... I don't have to own anything else from that strange place I left myself stuck in ever again.

WOOT... all that's gonna be said on that... ever.

02 October 2016

I hate it as much as I love it...

Raiding

This is the final reward for me for a job well done... I level and I get stuff done and then if I get it all in the right order and did it all to the best of my ability I get to play with the big kids and do stuff together in a group and get even better toys.

And I've been in a social/casual/altaholic but NOT raiding guild for 6 years... and I'm learning the hard way that this isn't the way to raid. Unless I could become the kept pet of some raid guild somewhere that doesn't care that I'm not in their guild... then it would be perfect. The best of both worlds. Friendly people always willing to go the extra mile for someone just because they're in the same "family" online and ALSO the chance to beat my head against the wall of getting 9-24 other people to all coordinate and get some challenging and awesome thing done just for pixels and accolades in an online game.

Instead we have a whole lot (90% of the guild) of people who play for themselves in their own heads for their own goals and don't even regularly see the chat window... and even less regularly have anything to say in it. They are in a guild for the comfort of not seeing themselves in the world alone and still are all about their own goals and their own activities. The concept of gearing and specing for a group that will check everything down to the enchant on their shoes because they thought it was funny? not so much. LMAO

I'm not saying it's bad, I'm saying it sucks to be in a place where I know what needs to happen and not really want to make it so. Everyone plays the game their own way... and the weird disconnect between wanting to raid because it seems cool and actually raiding is tremendous.

I found this article and it just says what I have been saying all along. You can't just go raid. You can't even just go raid if you have the gear from dungeons because tanks are assholes and overly confident LFG assholes abound everywhere and dungeons are, for the most part designed around the lowest common denominator, not the middle or highest. You can suck at awareness and preparation and everything important in raiding and still have the gear. Sometimes the RNG seems to reward the loser in the group more than the one busting their ass. Not always, just sometimes.

What I just said there is an asshole thing to say, btw... and it's true. You can have the gear and not have any idea what to do with it... just like you can be in my gear and still be competitive DPS at your level and have enough raid awareness to survive most things... most of the time.

So what is the answer? I just don't know. I can't get the big kids who are all too important to come and do the lower stuff because it's below them... I think they'd rather PUG out to the bigger raid guilds until the rest of us catch up. And as is always the case we have a bunch of folks who just aren't ready for the higher stuff who would benefit greatly from doing the next level down raids from WoD.

We'll see if LFR doesn't kill me with ineptitude.

09 September 2016

So... it's been awhile...

I have this love hate relationship with WoW that is no secret here in this blog... from guild disorder to outright frustration with mechanics and bad balancing...

Legion bears the stamp of a development company that "gets" what the hard and true players really loved... and still bears the reak of what the nasty little gamer turds also like... so it's a mixed bag of good and awesome and some sort of frustrating stuff.

Overall... this is gearing up to be an expansion like Lich King... and I am loving it. Scale of 1-10 I'm at a 9.9... and that's good. I'm ignoring the proving grounds and might continue to do so... I've leveled only Allumette and everyone else is standing on the starting line with heel-kicked starting blocks ready for launch. It's so much fun and so densely packed that until I've leveled three or four I don't even think I'll see much overlap except for the story-line.

On the super plus... they seem to have taken a lot of the squish out of our rotations... a few buttons will do ya... except... as with all things WoW... that's not entirely true. There's still only one "right" way to do things if you want the max DPS and I haven't been doing it... so... I may have some changes to make. And overall you hit the ground running in a direction that is clear and fun and rewarding and you do it with all of the hero aspects clearly detailed from the beginning. YOU are the world's only hope... LOL We all know everyone else playing is ALSO the world's only hope... and that's ok. The enemy is clear, the reason we're doing these things is clear and the treats, pets, toys and other boons are awesome enough to make you want to suspend your disbelief for awhile. LOL

On the super low... world area flagging for PvP of all factions against all factions and rewards for farming. No kidding. Go to the Underbelly and let the guards go on break. It's awesome... and I wont say in a good way. Everyone wants you dead... how else will they get the marks they need to buy a 200,000 mark special mount? Go to certain World Quest objectives and get farmed by your own party as soon as you enter the grounds because they really need that iLevel 815 trinket! I fucking hate this shit... either we're always PvP or we're NOT PvP without choosing to be and at NO time should someone that is in my party with me be able to turn around and maul me dead. This constant back and forth and really desirable items overlapping them makes me insanely angry. It is clear that there are members of the WoW development team who measure their penises by the number of ways they made someone else's day suck, at the same ratio as they exist in the game and that makes me sad.

Everything else is everything else... same old same old with guild wanting to grow and go different directions and me wanting to play and get good at one thing at a time and all the ways that you can lose a few hours in the game without realizing it has even happened balanced amidst it all. It's really good and awesome and this time I have pledged to walk away before I allow myself to drown in the stuff that makes me hate logging in.

My goal for Legion is not to give a fuck and to avoid the things about which I give fucks in a bad way and completely immerse in the things about which I give fucks because I enjoy them.

Lets see if I can manage not to quit for 2 years again. I really really wanted to love Draenor... I LOVE that area of the world and all of that lore... and I left some toons behind to level through it so I can see it when the nasty little cherrios huffing pussies are busy grieving in the Legion content. LOL

I really think that lowly of them. I really do. Other people carry PvP server scars... I carry griever scars. And I have a watchful wariness of the developers of this game I like so much because they clearly enjoy my misery.

All things in moderation... even WoW... and they've guaranteed it... perhaps I should just be thankful.

The new face of Dalaran... :D






















lots and lots of new. :D