As sad as the scene you're creating?
I used to think it was really pathetic of me that I would get an idea in my head and write it before I could forget it or let it get away from me just like I do with my novels, treated the fan fiction I was writing as though it were simply a waste of my time and a stall from the more important work I had to do.
And then speaking to a girlfriend it occurred to me that I write. That is what I do. I write technical funness for employers, I write less technical funness for employers and co-workers. I write raw hard sex for friends, for myself and for sale. I write fluffy soft tender sex for friends, for myself and for sale. I have been working on a pair of novels for years now and those I write mostly for myself and with intent to share with an entire world of potential fans. And I write fan fiction for friends and for myself.
Fan fiction is quickly dated, often irrelevant by the time it is written or shortly thereafter and if you're like a really sexy friend of mine also tends to involve the highly visible and sexy non-player characters who have really only static existence in a game or story anyway. My girlfriend writes */ fiction that lights me on fire and melts me and I wouldn't ever even try to duplicate it because I have my erotica and other mediums for it. Besides, I've never personally been one to imagine my favorite guys in a show together... there are very many who do and do it so well that I promise it's an erotic experience, perhaps in part because it's less comfortable.
In my creative exploits the fan fiction I write tends to correct a wrong, or include specific characters in situations that were less dramatic or inclusive when we did them as a group of 24+me. In two separate character's lives I have examined the storming of the Citadel in Ice Crown and killing Arthas from different perspectives. I have married the timelines because, well, the lovely writers at Blizzard made sure we had had the same experiences by farming us up and through the same bosses with the same mechanics in the game.
"How the hell do you make them different then?" My son asked me once.
Easily. Syndalee was in a group working their way up from the foot of the citadel, working mostly with a second team of Horde until they'd made it into the main Citadel where the Death Knights had been working a second war-party up from the Citadel main, as you were. A third party met them all in the middle coming in and down from an area in the frozen ground below them all. Julienne's party came straight up and in with Varian and the Death Knights and marched through from the point. (If you play the game picture coming in from the Dailies side, another from the 5-man instance side for one and coming in from the actual Raid entrance on the other.)
As the author I did this for a number of reasons.
1. as a player it never didn't occur to me that there were Horde and Alliance teams busting a move through the Citadel every time I was there doing the same thing. It's a competition world wide when any new raid or content comes out, us against them, me against the world. In a war it would be no different, even against a single objective. Coordinated or not, the idea that one elite group of 25 was going to take out Arthas alone never appealed to me, and instead I pictured thousands of us in wave upon wave, dead and dying along every corridor and down every wall making one last do or die attack coordinated by our leaders and carried out by our bodies against the Lich King.
I know, really dramatic. Tell me you don't like the 1000's of extras in scenes from Troy and Lord of the Rings movies and I'll point out that you likely also do not play MMO games or spend much time playing RPG ones, either. It seems to be a unifying characteristic of us all that more is moar and that rhymes with ROAR.
2. as a writer of erotic fiction I like to believe that there are stolen moments in anything we do where there is time for sex of one kind or another. by giving different avenues I made myself separate windows of opportunity to explore, and will admit that from Horde and Alliance sides those windows have been found and exploited to one degree or another.
3. different perspectives and experiences provide writers with different views of the same situation and I find I write better within an educated view than from one of not knowing and having to intuit or guess.
It is roughly 15 minutes in my mind for a "real" war-party from the time that the elite team decides to take the front door of the Pit until they engage the first boss. Roughly the same length of time between the next pair until they'd be on the last one. An hour for an army of fighters to make it from the outer door to the quandary of a portal taking them ever deeper into the labyrinth created by the Lich King.
I fixed it in my mind by looking at how long it was taking players in a group of 5 to figure out what to do and how to go about it, and avoid making dreadful party wiping mistakes along the way. By the end of course, we'd done it and done it and done it and in 15 minutes on heroic difficulty we could clear the last boss and get achievements along the way doing it.
Why is this important? For Holle it was dreadfully important. In a 15 minute window I know as the writer how long she can linger, checking. How powerfully her lover can kiss her and leave her shaking inside and then how long she has to run, axe in hand and undead legs pumping until she's overheated for the first time since waking as a Death Knight and discovering that her life was now entirely different from the one she'd had before. If you've ever seen the run she's making, it's imagined to be a pretty long one. I figure she missed the first few hits in that second great combat since she had to make it through the cleared Forge and all the way across to the portal that would take her into the Pit.
Anyway... I'm being verbose and silly to prove my point. It's unnecessary roughing and I'll take the two point deduction and throw in from here like a good girl.
The point is that it seems the only thing I write for myself without a double check or worry to it's relevance is my fan fiction. I can do this because I use only my own characters as they relate to others of my own characters or to yours when you're a willing participant in more RP types of play for a time. I can also do this because I get such great benefit from exploring the different angles, suggestions and rules in play in each situation. Be realistic, how creative would you have to be FOR REALS if you were going to mate an undead Blood Elf girl to a Tauren Druid? More creative than you've ever had to be in your real bedroom. Trust me.
All examples above give the impression that there is no fan fiction for Rift on my boards. This would be an unrealistic expectation. The difference is that I still safely guard and protect my Rift stories on the grounds that they belong entirely to me with no one else participating and are therefore more intimately telling about myself and my relationship to the game. I have them. Rift is more dynamic, more visually stunning and was new enough to be erotic in and of itself for those of us given to that sort of sensation in a new setting in an online game, anyway.
There are bits and pieces of Jules' rift romance buried deeper in this blog, along with samples of the others... and its important to point out that these stories are ongoing because as soon as they're created they're behind the character and something new and exciting waits over the horizon. If writers create their worlds the way that humans made their gods, then even in a life created within someone else's creation there are ongoing timelines and lives that I owe a certain respect to. Julienne's story is not done in either WoW or Rift, nor are the many character's she'll meet along the way. I love that part of writing Fan Fiction the most.
Peace, and if not peaceful then surely kill them all and let their Gods sort them out... MMO is for the strong of mind and spirit, if they go crying to mommy don't worry yourself overmuch, there will be another just over the hill.
*for those less in the know, as I was. / or slash fiction is where two male or female characters from a show have a previously unseen sexual relationship. The first labled slash fiction tended to be Spock/Kirk as a genre when it burst onto the scene and has grown to include even modern day shows and comics and movies and literature.
--reposted from iridiumFrog okcupid blog